Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Game Changer

Holy Curve Ball!

I feel like all my plans, all of the things that I have been gearing up and getting so excited for to happen this summer have left the building.
Saturday, my bestie and soon to be roomie Barney broke her back. She was doing handstands out on the lawn of a friend's house, her spine compressed while she was in the air and she fell straight on her spine. I got a call from her sister at 11:30 pm at work, telling me that Barney was in the ER, that her back was broken and we don't know how bad.
She has since come home, but has basically been immoble on the bed, positioned with wedge pillows to relieve pain and pressure and drugged almost into oblivion. I have basically been there all day, only going home long enough to get a few hours of sleep, work a full shift and then go straight back bedside... Rinse and Repeat...
We were supposed to be moving out of our places like TODAY, which is obviously not going to happen. I feel so bad. It still hasn't really hit me that she actually broke her back. That she's not just sick for a few days and then it is back to business as usual. But that just won't be happening. I am so grateful that she isn't paralyzed and that because it is a broken bone (as opposed to disc damage), like other broken bones, it will heal itself and she shouldn't have chronic or reoccuring issues because of it. But it is still so hard.
I feel bad even posting that one sentence as I don't want it to come across as whining or like I want or deserve pity because that isn't true AT ALL... I feel like such a crap person to even think to myself that this has been stressful for me... I am alive and walking and able to do all the little aspects of functioning that we all take for granted. I don't have anything to legitamately complain about. So, that will be my ongoing goal and focus. To slow down, be patient, be more grateful-minded and less Little-Miss-Checklist...