Monday, June 20, 2011

Messy, messy, messy

Blah.. I'm a mess. It is 3 in the morning and I have yet to see the insides of my eylids... I have 3 unfinished blogs that need to go up, with pictures and such showing what I've been up to the last few days (going back to work, Father's day and other such randomness)...
But I am scared. I am scared to close my eyes... Because when I do, its all there. So many memories.
I swear... I know logically that doing trauma work is important and a step that I need to be taking. But it is making everyday functioning damn near impossible.
Insomnia, panic attacks, nightmares blah blah blah.
I need to get my shit together.